i still havent gotten any sleep. i doubt i will anytime soon. ive just been sitting on my bed kind of paralyzed. it's what happens when you can't cry anymore than you have.
yesterday morning was the biggest surprise of my life. my parent still wouldn't tell me why we drove all the way out to fucking florida. then after breakfast my dad called me and he had this small plastic bag in his hands. he started explaining why we were where we were.. "well, you see, this is a family heirloom. there's pictures in here that are of my grandma, and my grandma's grandma, and your grandparents' grandparents... and i also have an obsession with plastic bags, so i put my favorite ones in here, i hope you'll treasure them." i just laughed and shook my head and started opening all the plastic bags. there really was a lot of them in there. then finally, i pulled out a chadam shirt and was fucking happy. i mean, it's chadam, right?! but my mom vaguely pointed out that there was a present i'd neglected. a concert ticket. i took it, thinking it was just for voodoo fest, but when i got a closer look, i saw that it read "The Used". what. the fuck. so of course, i started thanking and hugging and then i had tears coming down my face. i was in total disbelief. i still am. didn't think the used would do that to me. then we went to the beach, and when we were leaving i saw a tour bus with a trailer pass by. i figured i was one of the bands from the show because how many tour busses would pass through fucking pensacola?..
when i got to the venue, the line was huge and the same bus that i saw at the beach stood there. i got inside and went to the seats cos i knew i wouldn't have fun on the floor by myself. the venue was fucking HUGE. an arena. the kind where the stage isn't built into the wall, but actually set up on the floor. you could fit 17 house of blues floors there, at least. fucking massive. the floor was about half full, and it reminded me of when i met saosin's singer cove. i asked him if he liked playing TOC and he said not especially cos they always did arena shows and they never sold out and were huge. he said he liked playing small places like house of blues cos they're bound to sell out and there's a more intimate atmosphere. i can't agree more. the first band was pretty good surprisingly. it was these seven scene kids sprawling themselves all over the stage and taking turns jumping in the crowd. the kid with the keyboard danced funny. i was just chillin and when i wasn't watching the stage, i was watching the people who watched the stage. i was still unconvinced when this was real. when their set was over, some random kid sitting to my side yelled out "I FUCKING HAVE HERPES!" i was fairly amused. then i went to spend all my money on a fucking jacket. fifty bucks, but totally worth it.
i couldn't help myself.
by the time i got back inside, the bled was on. their sound was a bit muffled, but great nontheless. they had amazing energy. i was really glad that i wasn't on the floor at that time because the same thing happened that happened when i was at underoath. the whole pit was kinda swaying, and everyone was being pushed from side to side by an unknown force. they had a good mosh pit though. i noticed how most kids my age were down on the floor and the seats were for the most part full of drunk 20 year olds or scene couples. they played some stuff from their first cd, the only one i have, and i was the only one that knew the words. kinda weird considering i don't even like them all that much. the lead singer was funny. "when this show ends, i think i'll spontaneously combust. it's not really suicide, it's just shit happens, yunno?" then some roadie ran on stage to fix something and the lead singer introduced the roadie to the crowd. then he got random kids to shout out their names to him and he introduced the kids. then the security guy, steve. (HI STEVE!) there was a couple of lesbians making out to the side of me. i was jealous.
i swear, the used took lightyears to set up. at least it felt like it. i moved closer to the stage, where more people my age were, and amused myself by looking for chadam. cos i heard that he watches shows from the side sometimes. i didn't find him which was pretty lame. i guess he wasn't there. finally the used came on, and god.. they were as amazing as ever. quinn had odd hair. bert was...bert. just chubbier. dan was silly and kept playing with his hat. jepha was.........well, jepha was fucking orgasmic. dancing with his bass. i was dancing also. and screaming every word of every song along with bert and everyone else in the room. that's what love is. then bert started talking about how "there's a lot of sexy ladies here tonight..but ladies are fucking crazy! but they have these things on their chest and those things have nipples. but yunno what?! nipples are for feeding babies!" then he started introducing the band, i loved his introduction of dan. "this is our new drummer, he actually played professional football for the pittburgh steelers. and basketball for the metts. and the nba, the wnba, the acd, the nbc, the lapd..." and so on and so forth. "TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRT DAN!" but dan wasn't the only one to take off his shirt, many chicks in the crowd flashed him. they left and then came back on to do an encore, just like every other band. assholes. not that i mind. then bert started singing and rapping beck's loser and called the crowd winners. they only sang four new songs and i liked all of them so i was happy. i do wish they would've played paralyzed though. that song's great.
last night was was the best.
still can't believe it happened.
these are scans from the last time i saw them, two years ago. i also had a really good closeup picture of jeph but i can't find it :/
a xanga. http://www.xanga.com/yulalala it's damn confusing, but i'll figure it out eventually. i guess i'll mostly be posting what i write in my notebook there. since i have a lj for personal shit, myspace for whatever.. so xanga will be writing. maybe some photography thrown in. whatever.
rain. kelly klarkson wannabe. mary ellen. morning showers. mash. 'so..prez and i hit it off pretty well this summer..' 'mr. tumnus is in my top 8!' question 39. 5 or 1? rubix cube. run it. fia dancing. banana pudding. radio+button=<3 'is that a boy and a girl...in a little canoe?' 3 am CIT swim. 'i don't wanna freakin' race!' rachel. speed. hold down the fort. jesus shoes. 'earth to quieeezz, come in, quieezz!!' radio fights with his sleeping bag. O RLY?! grilled cheese. the human zoo. the lost cabins. 4 hour hikes. mr. bungle. johnny poopoo pants. kenyon. 'i cain't daince!' dinner hikes. googly eyes. pink tiaras and pinecones. uncle jemima. happy birthday, maestro. elf doing the zoom. jr. counselor. 'haus..how can i be a better counselor?' the death of mr. bungle. thermal underwear. cabin 2. ballerina mime. albino zoo. friend & company. four in the morning awakening due to rain. and hail. tator. lolita. hammock. a button. notebooks. prom dress and a suit. cabin 11. CIT hazing. clinton. iam bam..not a tub. silly putty. 4 streets, 2 cops. lesbians in antique stores. fag wallets. peeing on fire hydrants. 'please don't kill me...i mop yo flo'!' the couch in the retreat. soft hair. mix cds. yulalala. hypergytis. wo he lo. kevin & kevinne. my dinosaur. wtf burger. nightwatch. borat. pinball wars. four million, six hundred points. the smiley face song. jackass moments. ....NOT! bff. tps turtle. blood. blog?! arizona tea. why am i? time is irrelavant. scream and run around in circles. hippy shirts. boobix, rubix, cubix. night swims. immortalization. here we leave treasures. jahosaphet. casanova, you damn hoe. leeth ru. bandanas. super bam. little mermaid sheets. pretty much?... basically. outstanding. stitchin'. hardcore moshpits. waltzing. skanking. ted's pants. rusty nails. tetnis. spirit sticks. the council fire. tea parties. candle wax. the slab. dora blankets. body heat. 'you have no heartbeat!' pillows. green m&m's. shooting stars. tator pops out of the ground. ballerina quiiiieeezzzz. ranger jim. bam. hugs. breaking down. two headed boy. secrets. 'that's more than a two minute hug!' aaron esters. the smiley face song. love. crl.
grouphug.us is a great site. there's a lot of sap, but there's also a lot of funny shit like this
When I was a kid I thought that sex was when a girl peed on a guys dick and then put the penis in her mouth to get pregnant, where in the baby would grow inside of her stomach. When ever I would get "aroused" I would go to the bathroom, stradle the toilet, and then pee. my mom walked in once and it was very awkward
there's also a lot of stuff that seems like i could've written it.. i am a pathalogical liar. i lie to my friends, boyfriend, family, and anyone who comes along. i've gotten so good at it that sometimes i even believe my own lies.
this seems like something tia could've written. the simple fact that i can't find my pencil is majorly pissing me off. i feel like killing someone. WHERE THE HELL IS IT.
and this Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like to insert a pineapple sideways in my ear
hehe.. niiice. i might start posting parts of my blogs there & saving the number that it gives me. then give it out to random people.
this is fucking ridiculous.. http://www.myfoxla.com/myfox/pages/News/Detail?contentId=3096234&version=1&locale=EN-US&layoutCode=VSTY&pageId=3.2.1 seriously, for has nothing better? hilarious. sad. i love the girl that's on the webcam talking about some bird.
i can honestly say that i wasn't expecting a lot from this show. i expected a shitty opening band, amazing saosin and okay red jumpsuit apparatus. i didn't expect to talk to anyone or make friends. i wanted to meet kids from bands but didn't expect to. this is why i'm glad i never expect much.
i rolled up to the HOB around 6.15 went inside, there was no line for some strange reason. ricky came to stand next to me on the stairs with some girl and was glad for that later cos he could actually see on the stairs. which is why i always stand there. best place to be. ricky said that there was a band before i got there, which explains the lack of a long-ass line. i'm not complaining. no way. a few minutes later, the first band, kaddisfly came on. their drummer rocked but their bassist didn't. sad. it happens. i felt bad for them cos no one got into them, but i rocked out. they were sweet, maynn. a mix of something corporate, and a tiny tiny but of fall out boy and an even smaller bit of foxy shazam. when they went insane on stage it sounded like foxy shazam. but now that i'm listening to them they really don't sound like foxy shazam.. just a little like something corporate and the academy is. they had a en edge of their cymbal broken off. i notice the strangest things. after that, a long-ass fucking wait for saosin. anxious. tragic. but saosin came on and it was amazing. more than amazing. fucking..insane and crazy and just beautiful. during one of their first songs, justin jumped into the crowd and cut his nose on his guitar. silly..it was neat, yo. they had so much energy..god, i swear they were better than last time. i think i scared ricky with my dancey-jumpy-yelly-crazyness. o'well. it happens. whatev, it was just like it should be. me and the music. ...the music and i? lolzzz. fuckin beastly. i'm proud to say that saosin had the only mosh pit during the whole show.. i'm proud to say i recorded it before it got broken up. it was during bury your head, i think. i'm pretty sure the reason it was broken up is that there was like 567684354 little eight year olds running around.. either way, it was great. they played seven years which made me really fuckin happy. energy throughout the whole set.. nonstop energy. it was amazing. and after they left i could barely breathe and i was dying of thirst. the wait to get water was probably longer than the line to get in would have been.. i would not would have wanted to be the lady working there.. she was doing everything so fast, probably out of breath and nervous not to mess things up. beastin that shit. i give her kudos. then i came back to my permanent spot on the stairs and heard two kids totally fangirling over the roadie that was setting stuff up on the stage. i kinda looked at them and they just smiled and we started talking. we talked about shows and random bands for a while, until red jumpsuit apparatus came on. and that was after they played mims' this is why i'm hot over the speakers. i danced :D i have to admit, RJA was great. they really were. nowhere near better than saosin, but great nonetheless. they were really energetic as well, and their singerman always did little dances. it was cute, lolz. i like his stage presence, lots. i knew all the songs the played, which surprised me, since i only really started listening to them last week. i guess they're that catchy. some random ten year old came up and stood by me, so i looked at the fangirls behind me and smiled, then put my arm around his shoulder without touching it. yes. he noticed. haha, but i probably made his night :D at one point i did my traditional 'billy bob, bring me my saddle' and ricky just stared at me like i was some crazy person. i can't blame him. after two encore songs, they finally left and i rushed to the stage to hunt for set lists and guitar picks. some girl was telling her friend how she wanted the beads that RJA kids threw and i saw some on the ground and got a roadie to pick them up and gave them to her. she was all happy and smiley and she gave me a hug. that was my good deed for the day. then i peeeeed and went upstairs to look at the merch. nothing was too special, so i decided to get the kaddisfly cd. the guys in the band were selling it for five bucks, so i got it and they signed it. i gushed over how good they were, which is true, they were great. i took pictures with the singer, the guitarist and some other memberrrr. can't say who, cos i really odnt know, but that's cool. then i went outside and stood by the barricade in hopes of catching a glimpse of someone in a band. random roadies and a blonde girl walk in RJA's bus and never come back out. RJA's drummerman walked out in his underwear, which is what he played the set in. i took a picture of him signing other kids' shit and stood back, cos i didn't feel like losing my vocal chords screaming for his attention, especially when i didn't have anything good for him to sign. like i said before, i really wanted to meet saosin. that was all i cared about. and from reading up about them in AP, i decided that i'd be better off just betting cove. he seemed like the nicest one, anywayy. and guess who i see when i turn around? fucking cove. standing to the right of the barricades, in from of RJA's bus. most kids don't notice him cos they're too busy complaining over how RJA won't come out. i came up to cove and got him to sign my cd booklet and shoe. took a picture with him. i look gross in it, but that's cool. he made silly faces whenever people took pictures with him. different one every time. i told him how much i fucking loved his band [so cliche, but had to happen] some kids left and it was only me, him, a girl and another kid. i asked him if he liked doing TOC, he said he hated it. said they played hockey-sized arenas for 17000 kids but only like 3000 or something tickets sold. sad. unbelievable. i told him that i saw them with senses fail and he was like, yeah mann. that was a great show. the subject of buses came up and he was like, noo i dont party. i dont smoke, drink, or do drugs. he showed us the trailer that was hooked up to saosin's bus. he's kinda like branden was i guess. so i was like, yeah, while theyre partying on that bus right now, we'll have a party right here. so me and the girl [jessica] start dancing and then cove joins in. fun shit, he makes up randomass movements and jessica recorded some of it on her camera. beest. the other kid that was with us asked cove if he'd sign his boob, and cove was like, nooo. i'm not a boob person, i don't sign boobs. lolzz. i asked him if saosin would headline anytime soon, and he said in september. i said that they should come here september 13th, then it'd be on my birthday and we could party just like we were doing. maybe even on his trailer or the bus. he also told us that the girl with the blonde hair that we might've seen [and we did] is kirsten storms.. O.o apparantly she's dating some kid from RJA. cove said he wanted to talk to her and take a picture with her. go figure. he went off to talk to someone on the phone and then sat on a amp case by his trailer and talked to some roadie. i wanted to go talk to him more but i felt like i was stalking him out or something, even though i knew i really wasnt. so i went back to the barricades with jessica and we just stood around. the kids that was with us earlier got the guitarist of RJA to sign his boob. he felt so proud. then it was time to leave. i gave jess and that kid hugs and walked toward canal street. i passes saosin's bus and cove was loading something into it. i said, i'm leaving can i have a hug? he said sure sweetie and hugged me and i was all happy. i still am.
i'm myspace stalking the people on the used's top whatever and i'm stalking friends of friends of those people. and i definitely just found the jepha's myspace. i'm excited. i know it's real cos it's on the top 8's of the used's actual friends that are on the top 8's of the used. i'm excited. also, i knew he had a myspace all along, because he's the only one out of the band with really any attention span for that kind of shit. he'll deny my friend request but that's cool.
i'm procrastinating in geometry yet again. the beach was okay but i didn't take nearly as many pictures as i thought as i would. apparantly it was 'freezing' and i would catch pneumonia and die if i went outside at night. whatever. i'm prolly going back this summer.
i have a bull on my arm.
is it weird that i have two exactly same posters hung up right next to each other?
was really really good. and really really sad. and i still dont get why it was her. i guess thats why it was so good. you'd never suspect her. i kinda guessed it was tho. in the beginning when everyone talked about themselves..when it was in grayscale.. she wasn't there. only in the end. wow. great movie. go watch it.
melody looks a SHITLOAD like ben's kelsey. like woah. kels:
melody:
oh yes. they're twins.
imma go watch little athens now. JOHN PATRICK AMEDORI! <3
ps. sorting laundry while listening to OK Go might just be the greatest thing ever.
i'm sorting laundry. man, my life is exciting. lasertag or bowling didn't happen but i'm still hoping for movies on monday with the ladies. im glad because i dont feel like going out today anyway. i wanna curl up with a blanket and watch some movies. write. maybe knit.
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